M. My: Mike has been another friend of mine. It was a reversal of fortune than I actually became Mike's friend since I let my mind brainwash myself into hating him before I became his full friend.
At one point a failed friendship (at my bidding tee hee) with a guy named Justin was actually good at one point. Back then I assumed that Justin had his connection avec Mike via their mutal friend Waston. Well needless to say my semi final decision to absolutely despise Mike was me building him up to be this ultimate nemesis of Justin. So over the years before I re-acquainted wth Mike, I disliked him, cause of the solid friendship that I had with Justin and how in a way me disliking Mike somehow solidified that relationship (when I wasn't acting like pure ass that is).
Well this lovely ball o hate was actually mistaken by Mike as my "crazyness" that seemed so school-wide by this point of my life, (how egotistical of me...obviously he knew it from Watson. I'm not popular WO WITH ME!) I dont' know how I really sustained this hate streak for a solid...2-3 month (or more) I think. I think in a way I focused on how conservative Mike is (in some cases) but lacked to see the subtle creativity and difference that I now admire in him. That with his homophobia back then and Farrah Fawcette. BWEE HEHEHEHHEHE. Well needless to say I went for a total breakdown when I realized that I was the prick towards Mike and not the other ways around. I really felt about it all since Mike was in my English class, he was more picked on apparently and I added to that antogonism that he had to go through.
Well I cried and appologized, realizing how much of a bully I was (I was only a bully once previous in my lifetime) and reconciled with a fresh start. In fact...I think I was a bit too enthusiastic to be his friend since we both took 3D animation in high school, I was bordering in almost doing his entire 3D project for him just to make up for me being a piece of shit. Mike was indeed a great person when I got to stop being an asshole and looked at his greater qualities which he has more of than faults, as we all hope to do.
Well fast forward a few years until now.
Mike is a great friend, possibly better than I give him credit for. However oddly if Rob and Mike were on a spectrum, I somehow put them at opposite ends. I guess it'd had to be a pretty narrow and small spectrum then *chuckle*. However there are some opposites I see in Rob and Mike at least in music, and personality. Mike's a bit more mainstream in listening in current music (although he loves old skool music of the early 20th century) and he seems a bit more conservative on a liberal sense. Not to say that he doesn't take chances, but experiementing with things is kinda like pulling teeth with him as he wants to stick what has been tried tested and true for him. Rob on the other hand is much more open...actually maybe too open to the point of compromising a lot of his own wants in order to facilitate others. I know that sometimes he hates the things I try to bring him into but hey c'est la vie. Rob is also more experimental in music but seems more connected with it. He can see beauty of music from all angles instead of just melody and harmony. However I have to say my tastes are most mainstream although I try...I really do try guys!.
As for Mike of right now, to tell the truth this paragraph might actually show how shallow I am; or at least how much I actually perceive people based upon their looks. Mike's pretty skinny now, sexy skinny mind you. He was always kinda fat when I knew him, a jovial warm fatness but since he's skinny I act like he's a different person now. He seems less cuddly but I need sometime to adjust to that, it's natural. Of course damned fate doesn't give me much time to adjust cause of the Xmas holidays being so short. The relationship hasn't changed obviously cause over the internet where I can't see his sexy face it's ALLL good.
I love Mike's art. I think it's the best artwork in the world sometimes and he's creative as a volcano spewing creativity, if they ever do that. I know that somehow it's not good enough for the industry; for some un-Godly reason and Mike keeps on putting himself down saying how this guy is better than him and vice versa, but who doesn't do that? The grass is always greener on the other side. But then again we all do live in our skin 24 hours a day so I guess we all focus on our faults and other people's greatness. I mean I have seen the other artwork of his friends, at least what they dare to put up on public, but Mike has this more diverse chance taking artwork where he brings these two insane concepts: like an amputee octopus or a mouse and a breast and makes them work.
As for Mike's GF, I havn't met her and I know that their spending a lot of happy times together. The fact of the matter it doesn't really phase me on how much time they spend together leaving less time for little ole me to converse with Mike cause as with Rob, I know that we are solid. That's a friendship that can never be broken except when I turn all assholy again, decide for a new group o main friends and destroy these chains of friendship, but I don't expect that in the future....not while I have actual enemies from my previous friendship-breaking-upping and wanderings among the vile earth.
I still feel bad about essentially not being able to get back his Fantastic Four comic and even feel worse due to what I intially asked him to lend me for an art-project. This furthers the addage of never to lend anything to anyone, since it seems we all have been burned badly once. I hope that in these next few days I might be able to get it back since my art friends MUST have settled down in their new places now...geez.
I really dislike Mike's pessimism, and I think that is what kinda holds him down from being as happy as a clam. Just life in general, about his work and espeically about love. I guess to some degree he's a realist or perfectionist, but he takes it too far sometimes to the point where it's just pointless to be so extreme in thinking so especially about perhaps a point that is equally pointless.
Well there it is, not as extensive as it is with Rob, but what I really think of Mike at this time. He's a great friend and possibly the greatest young-at-heart friend I could ever have. I'm only second to his extent of being young-at-heart (and Mike's even older than I) but I sure that if he quitted his un-healthy habits (cought cough...*cough-ee*...cough) he would live far longer than any of us, fuck it, even with coffee he'd still live longer than us. That caffiene will keep his corpse fresh years after he's passed away.
At one point a failed friendship (at my bidding tee hee) with a guy named Justin was actually good at one point. Back then I assumed that Justin had his connection avec Mike via their mutal friend Waston. Well needless to say my semi final decision to absolutely despise Mike was me building him up to be this ultimate nemesis of Justin. So over the years before I re-acquainted wth Mike, I disliked him, cause of the solid friendship that I had with Justin and how in a way me disliking Mike somehow solidified that relationship (when I wasn't acting like pure ass that is).
Well this lovely ball o hate was actually mistaken by Mike as my "crazyness" that seemed so school-wide by this point of my life, (how egotistical of me...obviously he knew it from Watson. I'm not popular WO WITH ME!) I dont' know how I really sustained this hate streak for a solid...2-3 month (or more) I think. I think in a way I focused on how conservative Mike is (in some cases) but lacked to see the subtle creativity and difference that I now admire in him. That with his homophobia back then and Farrah Fawcette. BWEE HEHEHEHHEHE. Well needless to say I went for a total breakdown when I realized that I was the prick towards Mike and not the other ways around. I really felt about it all since Mike was in my English class, he was more picked on apparently and I added to that antogonism that he had to go through.
Well I cried and appologized, realizing how much of a bully I was (I was only a bully once previous in my lifetime) and reconciled with a fresh start. In fact...I think I was a bit too enthusiastic to be his friend since we both took 3D animation in high school, I was bordering in almost doing his entire 3D project for him just to make up for me being a piece of shit. Mike was indeed a great person when I got to stop being an asshole and looked at his greater qualities which he has more of than faults, as we all hope to do.
Well fast forward a few years until now.
Mike is a great friend, possibly better than I give him credit for. However oddly if Rob and Mike were on a spectrum, I somehow put them at opposite ends. I guess it'd had to be a pretty narrow and small spectrum then *chuckle*. However there are some opposites I see in Rob and Mike at least in music, and personality. Mike's a bit more mainstream in listening in current music (although he loves old skool music of the early 20th century) and he seems a bit more conservative on a liberal sense. Not to say that he doesn't take chances, but experiementing with things is kinda like pulling teeth with him as he wants to stick what has been tried tested and true for him. Rob on the other hand is much more open...actually maybe too open to the point of compromising a lot of his own wants in order to facilitate others. I know that sometimes he hates the things I try to bring him into but hey c'est la vie. Rob is also more experimental in music but seems more connected with it. He can see beauty of music from all angles instead of just melody and harmony. However I have to say my tastes are most mainstream although I try...I really do try guys!.
As for Mike of right now, to tell the truth this paragraph might actually show how shallow I am; or at least how much I actually perceive people based upon their looks. Mike's pretty skinny now, sexy skinny mind you. He was always kinda fat when I knew him, a jovial warm fatness but since he's skinny I act like he's a different person now. He seems less cuddly but I need sometime to adjust to that, it's natural. Of course damned fate doesn't give me much time to adjust cause of the Xmas holidays being so short. The relationship hasn't changed obviously cause over the internet where I can't see his sexy face it's ALLL good.
I love Mike's art. I think it's the best artwork in the world sometimes and he's creative as a volcano spewing creativity, if they ever do that. I know that somehow it's not good enough for the industry; for some un-Godly reason and Mike keeps on putting himself down saying how this guy is better than him and vice versa, but who doesn't do that? The grass is always greener on the other side. But then again we all do live in our skin 24 hours a day so I guess we all focus on our faults and other people's greatness. I mean I have seen the other artwork of his friends, at least what they dare to put up on public, but Mike has this more diverse chance taking artwork where he brings these two insane concepts: like an amputee octopus or a mouse and a breast and makes them work.
As for Mike's GF, I havn't met her and I know that their spending a lot of happy times together. The fact of the matter it doesn't really phase me on how much time they spend together leaving less time for little ole me to converse with Mike cause as with Rob, I know that we are solid. That's a friendship that can never be broken except when I turn all assholy again, decide for a new group o main friends and destroy these chains of friendship, but I don't expect that in the future....not while I have actual enemies from my previous friendship-breaking-upping and wanderings among the vile earth.
I still feel bad about essentially not being able to get back his Fantastic Four comic and even feel worse due to what I intially asked him to lend me for an art-project. This furthers the addage of never to lend anything to anyone, since it seems we all have been burned badly once. I hope that in these next few days I might be able to get it back since my art friends MUST have settled down in their new places now...geez.
I really dislike Mike's pessimism, and I think that is what kinda holds him down from being as happy as a clam. Just life in general, about his work and espeically about love. I guess to some degree he's a realist or perfectionist, but he takes it too far sometimes to the point where it's just pointless to be so extreme in thinking so especially about perhaps a point that is equally pointless.
Well there it is, not as extensive as it is with Rob, but what I really think of Mike at this time. He's a great friend and possibly the greatest young-at-heart friend I could ever have. I'm only second to his extent of being young-at-heart (and Mike's even older than I) but I sure that if he quitted his un-healthy habits (cought cough...*cough-ee*...cough) he would live far longer than any of us, fuck it, even with coffee he'd still live longer than us. That caffiene will keep his corpse fresh years after he's passed away.
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